Life Is Strange

Posted: 02/22/2021 in Uncategorized

Life is strange is it not?

You wake up every day not knowing what’s in store.

You go to sleep only to journey yet again.

Our universe is so vast and yet it is so detailed.

Everything has a story, including you.

You may not be the first person to exist.

You definitely won’t be the last.

 But you are the only you that exists.

You’re unique from everyone else in your own special way.

Life is a journey.

You will hit many bumps along the way.

But you’ll keep moving on.

As cheesy as it sounds it’s not the destination that matters, it’s the journey.

That’s what makes life so wonderful.

The good and the bad moments we go through.

The people we meet.

The places we go.

 And the goals we accomplish.

It shows how incredible we can be and what we can do if we keep pushing on.

 If we keep on living,

 If you keep being you.

So life may be strange but it’s also very beautiful and you are a part of it.

So live your life the way you want to.

 Do what you want to do.

 Be who you want to be.

Just be you and never stop being you.

So don’t be sad.

Keep pushing on.

And smile for the entire universe to see!

So I wish you the best on your journey through this strange thing we call life.

 Peace.

Dusky Dame

Posted: 03/19/2019 in Uncategorized

ROXY,

To me, you were odd,

Which is why you are and always will be,

MY NUMBER ONE!!

When I met you five years back,

Your beautiful, innocent brown eyes,

Threw me off the hook,

Cos of your mesmerizing look,

You melted my heart,

I then realised, I was getting ready,

For a fresh start, a journey with you,

Who eventually became my,

Unconditionally loving, ever smiling and wagging,

DUSKY DAME!!

 

My heart is now weak, my vision blurred & bleak

You’re not around to play hide and seek!

I felt struck by a razor sharp dart,

As I’m trying to reconcile from being torn apart, devastated

As I was in absentia, during the pain you had escalated!

Had it not been for a circumstance,

We would’ve had more time together,

To flirt and dance!

Cos you were the love of my life,

The darling of my heart,

And I still can’t fathom, that you had to depart!

Had it not been for the fucking tumor,

I’d still have you around me,

Cracking up to your silly antics,

Your lavish sense of humour!

You taught me to never let go of the inner child,

Give more, expect less, run, play and be wild!

Hell, I can’t tell you how much I cried,

For not being with you, the time of which I was unfortunately deprived!

 

Oh my beloved missus, I will miss your hugs and wet kisses!

You’re not around me, else I’d given you some cheese,

But now you’re taken, to a safer place, a dog haven,

And your soul is resting in peace!

You’re reaching, last evening,was a welcoming rain,

I’m glad you’re far away from pain,

It will take me some time, to accept your loss,

Although I’m now in vain,

I’ll always have you in my heart,

A special place which no one can gain!

 

Goodbye love!

 

GREY

Posted: 07/23/2018 in Uncategorized

The sun is gone, the wind is blowing cold.

A wall of differing shades of grey looms over me.

It seems huge, overpowering.

The ominous grey mass, ready to descend, is frightening!

I’m traveling in mercy now,

When and where it will come, I can’t fathom how.

When the darkest grey has fallen,

My thoughts, words and actions are oblivion.

My conscious self disappears,

Heck, I’ll have to run for it to reappear!

The grey gets darker and darker,

Been over a month of meander,

A flash and Ka-Wham!, of thunder,

One right on top of the other,

Has left me, arms stretched out, to ponder,

Staring at the dark shades of grey, I begin to wonder!

As I rise up, gasping for breath, I realized,

Had I withheld the urge from those chases,

I wouldn’t be drowning in a sea of crisis.

Albeit, the message, subliminal,

Not paying heed, I’m now the criminal!

Does the universe have its mysterious phase?

To put you through an obfuscating maze,

Is it necessary, for one to get lost,

In clouds grey and dark,

To find their hidden, true spark?

               

 

BOOMERANG

Posted: 12/06/2017 in Uncategorized
By nature, I am a giver, MBTI says
In Maslow’s hierarchy, my wants have no craves,
As my needs supersede and takes its space!
Minimalistic extravagant,
I call myself not always,
I splurge, I indulge,
Until the silver lining shows his face!
Over the years, this practice,
Has transcended to a religion,
Has found a place in my heart, in my soul,
So deep, that it cant be traced, chased , replaced or erased.
But only cherished, nurtured and embraced!
Has taught me to be grounded, kind and humble,
Rather than succumbing to stumble, into a royal rumble!
I let my subconsciousness dwell,
For the free flow of thought, and ideas to swell,
My consciousness is aware and keeps me there,
But he takes me a level above, elsewhere!
In the end, am glad to have his take,
For its always higher, his profound stakes!
Rahul
28.11.2017

HIM

Posted: 07/24/2017 in Uncategorized
He’s a lone wolf, surviving the edge of twenty nine,
Seems to him, the rest of the pack are doing fine.
Everyday he wakes up, he ponders why,
He reckons, questions his IKIGAI!
Clouds of thoughts seem to appear,
He acknowledges a few as they gently breeze past his ear,
The rest, his mind bursts and they disappear.
Them left behind are those pristine and clear!
They smile at him, with a smirky smear,
‘Cos they very well know, they are far yet so near,
Lesser the subterfuge the better, he says
For there ain’t no wisdom gained those ways!
He’s evolved, learnt and understood,
That having his thoughts and values grounded, is necessarily good!
To acknowledge and accept his fate,
Has helped him douse battles, rather than instigate!
This realization has transcended his thoughts of all sorts,
Has placed him at a pedestal, an elevate!
Call it a streak of enlightenment, for which he feels blessed and great!
Rahul
19.07.2017

ZEN JAHRE

Posted: 05/12/2017 in Uncategorized

A decade has passed,

Since the emperor of all maladies,

Inflicted an alarming tragedy.

His soul plummeted so fast,

That he thought, its his last!

He looked around, at eyes distraught.

And wondered,

What would be the size of the clot!

All around, voices he heard, that said,

“You’ll get well, we love you , our prayers are with you”

From all those who loved him, them priceless few!!

He was ready to fight it, give it his best shot!

The tumult he had to endure,

He felt would change his perspectives with a grandeur!

Up he climbed the treacherous cliff,

Subdued to all the intolerance, without much of a whiff!

No pain, No gain, he once said,

For he knew, he had a path to tread,

To maintain his stature and stead!

Slipping into a trance,

He had his last glance,

Of all his near and dear,

Told ’em not to worry and fear.

A gentle whisper, he heard, that said,

“Son! That’s the right attitude in your head”!

Clad in a gown, with a wrap on his face,

He lay in bed, pricked and scathed.

Out he came of the warzone, after a heroic fight,

Battered, but he knew he had been treated right!

His enemy, conquered, destroyed and thrown out of sight,

Slowly and steadily, he began to sit upright!

Having emerged the winner of the historic war,

He had at the back of his head,

A veil lifted – a revelation,

An Identity,

An everlasting SCAR!

Rahul

02.20.2016

Date: 3/3/2017

Day: Friday

 

I was returning back to Bangalore from Chennai in the morning train (double decker). My seat was in the lower level, window side (I like the sights while travelling) and was the only seat on the left side corner of the coach. I had kept my bag on the rack on top and made myself comfortable. No co-passengers had arrived as yet, but there were a few seated on the other side, a bit far from my sight. There were the caterers loading the large food trays and filling up the dispensers with hot coffee and tea. I usually drink a liter of water once I wake up. I guess that shot a trigger to my bladder to relieve itself. I got up and went to answer natures call. The train hadn’t departed as yet. Relieved, I came back to my seat, plugged on the earphones for my brain cells to feel the hit of some nice songs and my lips to sing along gently.

 

A passenger walks up to me and says “Excuse me, you mind if I keep my luggage on the rack above you? As I see that you aren’t having any”. I look up and to my surprise, I see my bag missing!! When I came back from the rest room, an elderly person had occupied a seat adjacent to mine. I asked him if he may have seen anyone walk across but he seemed to have seen no one. He had in fact said that he hadn’t seen any bag on that rack. I began to ponder who would have taken it? A passenger or one of the caterers, or a railway staff, or a keen observer of me from the time I had walked into the station and boarded the coach. A mix of panic, anxiety and worry was trying to settle into my brain. Trying not to fall prey to them, I had to think of what has to be done to try to retrieve the bag. I asked a few others in close vicinity to my seat, but they too seemed to be lost and instead started rendering advices and situational outcomes. I was getting a bit irritated, but realized that they were doing their bit to help.

I then conversed with the caterers in Tamil, each of them who were selling breakfast, tea, coffee, snacks and water. Upon hearing my rendition, they jumped to a conclusion that someone would have walked into the coach, with the thought that I was carrying a laptop, cash or other electronic goods and would have taken the bag. But I wasn’t carrying a laptop. “Railway police kiita complain pannunga Sir. Try panallam but bag kadaikarithu guarantee iila” (File a complaint with the railway police, and if you’re stars are lucky you may get the bag. )

 

Contents in the Bag:

  1. 3 t-shirts
  2. Shorts – 1
  3. Toilet kit
  4. Sunglasses – 1
  5. A course file and a notepad
  6. A pair of floaters
  7. 2 vests 3 boxers
  8. Bangalore house keys

 

They said I was lucky I wasn’t carrying a laptop or money as they seen cases in which the absconder had stolen cash worth 30,000 and laptops. One instance they narrated was saddening, as a girl who had her graduation certificate in her laptop, had left her laptop for charge and went to the restroom. When she came back she found it missing. This train (double decker) is unlike a Shatabdi or a Lalbagh, in which you’ll never get tickets, and in this there are ample available, and a few coaches will have null occupation. I informed the TTR, he acknowledged and took a note of my complaint and said he would pass it on to the railway police and would try to get it back. He also said since I wasn’t carrying anything of worth, that person might even leave the bag in the station.  I wanted to check if the bum would have left the bag in one of the other coaches and walked all the way from coach C1 to C8. Wonder what the co-passengers would have thought of me, as I didn’t do this once but thrice!! I texted my roommate about this and told him to leave his key at home before going to work. I was a bit upset, but if fate had to play its game, then that’s a stroke of bad luck and so be it! But what made me feel bad was that I had lost 2 biker tees and a box of 4 panner rolls (Yumm!!) which my mum had to wake up before sunrise to prepare. I know what you are thinking!! ;-). I also thought about the fond memories the bag and I shared for one last time!

 

Date: 06/03/2017

Day: Monday

 

In the afternoon, I get a call from an unknown number. When I answered a voice familiar said “Hello,Rahul?”. Yes, I responded and while conversing I came to understand it was a guy named Jeykel whom I had met in Chennai when I had attended a four day course. He was from Bangalore, pursuing a master’s degree in Coimbatore, so we exchanged numbers and decided to meet when he comes to Bangalore next. You’ll be amazed with what he had to tell me. He said “Dude, did you lose your bag in the train on your way back to Bangalore?”. It took me a few breaths and about two minutes to comprehend what he had just said. I said “Yes I did, how and what do you know about it?”. “I got a call from a lady who claims to have found your bag in the station. I’ll share her number; get in touch with her as soon as you can”. Bewildered! I asked him how on earth did she get his number? “She found my number in your notepad which you had used during the course” Whoa!! A great presence of mind I would say, but a human beings alter ego always raises this ridiculous feeling of doubt! Now, why would anyone be even a tad bit concerned about an abandoned bag at a railway station? I didn’t want to pile up a story without even knowing the prologue! I called the number which Jeykel had shared with me an a man answers the call. I speak in Tamil, introduce myself and told him the entire sequence of events. He responded saying he is that lady’s son and he would pass on the phone to his mom. Her name was Prema. She works in the Egmore railway station as a supervisor in the 2nd class waiting room (in charge of luggages). She said she found my bag in the 2nd class waiting room and had taken it home and was ardently looking out for contact information. She said her son found the number (Jeykel’s) and had made a call to him. The absconder, having scanned the bag and not having found anything of use to him would have left it to remain astray.

 

I noted down her number and she told me to call her next time I was in Chennai. She gave me two options: 1. if she was reporting for duty, she would carry the bag to the station and I could collect it from there and 2. If she was off duty, I could go to her residence at Avadi (about 25 km from where I reside) to collect it. A bit apprehensive of the latter Ta da, I plunged and grabbed the first offer. Yeah she literally made an offer I could refuse!! (Don Prema Corleone) LOL! I get to Chennai on 13th afternoon and give her a call. She told me to come to the Egmore station at 3:00 pm on 14th to the 2nd class waiting room. I thanked her and said I would call her on 14th afternoon prior to me leaving from home. When I did, she said her father has slipped in the bathroom and she had to take him to the hospital, and she is off duty on 15th. Again a dose of this ridiculous doubt loomed over my head! Why is she trying to avoid meeting me? She had been cooperative throughout, answered all my phone calls. But yes, she also shouldn’t care about others belongings? Hmmm. You stupid human mind, people all over the world are creating fires in their head because of you! Over the years, I had practiced not to succumb to his gameplay and also realized that overthinking and passing judgments leaves one exhausted!

 

Inner peace! Calmness! Tranquility!

 

I call up Prema on Wednesday, 15th and she said relayed the two options she had given me earlier. But now she would be in the station on 17th and at home on 16th. Preferring the first, we made an accord to meet on the 17th at 3:00pm. My dad had some work at a place nearby the station so he said he doesn’t mind coming with me once he is done with his errand. We drive down to the station and on my way I called Prema but did not get a response. After reaching the station, I called her nearly 8 times but to no avail. We walk up to the 2nd class waiting room to meet her. Witnessed a lot of people sitting, a few lounging and a whole lot of bags, a few stacked neatly in racks with tokens on them, a few sprawled around. We see this guy sitting with a table in front of him and a register on it. He said this is a list of people who have left their bags in the room and while taking them, they would have to sign. For the record! We ask him if he knows anyone by the name Prema. He looked a bit lost and on an auto-pilot mode, looking north talking south! “Premaa Va?” He exclaims. “No Saar, yennaku theriyadhu”. She must have gone for lunch. Wondering what to do, my dad and I exchange a few glances, gestures and words.

I take a look around the room but couldn’t spot it. Despair stricken, a line from coldplays song Fix You – “Lights will guide you home” played at the back of my head. Coming back to the place where the guy was sitting, I was standing with my legs crossed and my left hand on the side of the table, I take a look near the guy’s feet and I see three bags stuffed between the chair and the table. I inspect closely and could identify my bag was one among those, as it had two small holes in the front pouch. I pulled it up, opened it and took out all the items one by one. Apart from my sunglasses, everything was intact. I didn’t bother who would have taken it but that feeling of exhilaration ran down from my spine! I found my bag! I call up Prema again but her phone just kept ringing. My dad and I wait for 15 minutes but still see no sign of her. I take the bag and walk with a slight feeling of dejection, as she had kept my bag safely. Who would be so down to earth and humble in today’s world? We thank the guy and leave the station.

 

After about half an hour or so, I get a call. It was from Prema. I told her I came to the station, and found my bag in the 2nd class waiting room. She asks where I am. On my way home I said.  She immediately responded asking why I hadn’t waited to see her. I said I had called her 8 times and also from the waiting room. She had apparently left her phone in her handbag, kept it in the locker, went to sign the register and finish lunch prior to taking up her responsibilities for the day. Having kept the bag under her custody for a week, she was irked up a bit as she couldn’t meet me. I carried the same emotion too. I told her next time I was in Chennai I would definitely come to the station to meet her. I called her son and thanked him too. I told my mum about it, and she too opined that I should have stayed as it is very rare to come across such pristine souls at a time when humanity has corroded! What would you have called it? Good Karma?

 

 

Appreciate people for who they are. We are all imperfect, dancing to the tune of life, and that’s what makes it beautiful!

The bag and its contents!IMG-20170317-WA0009

HEY WAVY LADY!

Posted: 09/30/2015 in Uncategorized

I feel it in my fingers,
I feel it in my toes,
Can’t help, but it just grows!
I want to run my hand,
Through your beautiful hair,
In a way, that I enjoy the smoothness,
Of every single strand!

Every time I look,
Pardon me I stare,
Purple hazed and hued,
I’m stuck in a mesmerizing glare!
Cos when you put two together,
Your smile and hair,
To me, that’s a world another,
And other things, I don’t care!

I don’t want this,
To be a fleeting moment,
But something which,
I’ll always cherish, and wish,
The waves remain ever permanent!

Jump The Gun

Posted: 09/16/2015 in Uncategorized

There is a part of me

Which tells me to be quiet

There is a part of me

Which tells me to riot

Do I flight or fight?

I ask myself,

As I have to set it right!

I would go ahead with the latter,

But the barriers to cross,

Will be the size of a huge platter!

I’ll have to fight for things I need to set right,

Else I question the purpose,

Of my existence,

Not just once, but,

Every other day and night!

I would want to break through,

All the barriers,

Jump the gun and meander,

Cos only I have the power,

To absolve and resolve,

To illuminate my status,

From dull to brighter!

Though easier said than done,

It will be close to an arduous task,

To convince the concerned some,

It’s in my hands to reckon a way,

Cos in the end, I’ll want them to have a positive say!

Only then,

Will I be able to glide,

With an ample dose of freedom and pride!

Rahul

 

I leave home at 9:00 for work. My office is located at Velachery, one of the well-known areas in Chennai. It usually takes me twenty minutes, but considering the erratic traffic, sudden and random bus stop’s in the middle of the road, the call taxi drivers honking and whizzing from all corners of the street, not to secure a place not to wait for the signal to go green, but break the signal when it’s burning red! The roads in India have never been driver/rider friendly since eons! I really wonder why people throng to an amusement park, when they can get a roller coaster ride for a liter or two of petrol/diesel/kerosene/some random chemical which the Government say is a lubricant for the vehicles. Economical it may seem! But beware, you might end up with those annoying back aches and muscle spasms in your joints! To add-on to all this ruckus, Chennai city proudly presents to you the menacing auto drivers! With no meter to monitor the fares, they literally take you for a ride. Oh, and a few may even be considerate enough to make you feel elegant! Bewildered? They have all the accessories installed in their auto’s! From a music system with throbbing woofer’s, to a revved up exhaust system, cool green, dark blue and yellow neon lights inside the actually 3 seater auto,  but in reality you can find 6! And when you try to negotiate the rates, they stare at you, like it’s the curse of the black pearl (their eye-ball)! Literally!

I reside at Thiruvanmiyur. It usually takes me 20 minutes to get to work, but with traffic being at its peak, and maneuvering through the very little road space that is left ,thanks to the apartments, the neighborhood stores, the fast food joints and fruit vendors, that literally take up 80% of the road space! I had just crossed the signal and was right opposite the Thiruvanmiyur post office. The rule on the road is to keep left, and it’s blatant that you should not overtake from the left.

So, I guess today was my day for a very loud rendition of a very popular Tamil swear word to an auto driver. Driving and riding around the city, has made me polish my pronunciations of these irksome words, and sometimes the receiver’s reactions are priceless! I looked at the mirror on the right in my scooter and noticed an auto driver speeding, looking to aesthetically swerve through the   buses, trucks, bikers, cyclists and walkers. This guy manages to somehow do his task effectively, maintaining the same speed! And then, two seconds later he crashes in to my scooter’s front mud guard grill! It just flew two to three meters away.  I yelled at him, and when he heard the word, he hit the brakes so hard that the auto came to a halt with screeching tires! I called him ‘Dai Baadu’, which has more than one meaning, at least that’s what I heard! So, I am not sure which meaning he came to comprehend at that moment! He was startled, I was holding the mud guard grill in my right hand and shouting, ‘ Yo! Paathu Pomaate’? (Won’t you look and go?) Believe me, he was just staring at me, he did not utter a word!

Then came the traffic cop, the one who always arrive at the scene after the drama and action are over! The auto driver then looks at the cop and says, ‘Saar, avan yenna baadu nu kooptan’!(Sir, this guy called me a …..) The traffic cop then turned to me and asked me why did I call him so? I told him what had happened and pointed the mud guard grill very close to his face, and then said ‘Aama, ivan vanthu idichan, nalla varthey le koopadanuma’?(You expect me to address him humbly after he has hit my bike?) The cop then told then asked the auto driver, why he couldn’t slow down? For which his answer was , ‘Saar, at least naai nu kooptundha paarava-illai, aana baadu nu kooptaan saar’! (It is alright if he had called me a dog, but he called me that word!) Lol! I wanted to burst out laughing on his face! This is the first auto driver who seems to have felt humiliated by this popular swear word which rests on the tip of their tongues!

I asked the auto driver to give me Rs.100 to get the grill fixed. He gave me a 50, as he had no change and left. I was getting late to work as well and had to leave. But just as I was about start my scooter, the cop puts his hand on my shoulder and says ‘Don’t fight with auto driver rascals! They have community. One call, all will come’! My sincere advise. Which aroused my curiosity and I shot back at him asking, why? Won’t you be around to offer assistance and chase away those shenanigans? He vehemently replied, ‘Na na, waste of time!’. So I sat on my scooter, wore the helmet, started the bike, said ‘Po ya’ and left! Didn’t feel like cursing him as well!